HIT THAT BULLSEYE. ♥

Tuesday, July 31, 2007

8:43 PM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KELLY DEAR ! (:

haha ! (:
FEEL 15 51 YET ? (:

OH AND ,
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY MUNTENG DARLING ! (:

the last two days of july are the best huh ? xD

LOVES<3
;melissa

Lock and Load, baby,
you ready to Rock and Roll?
HIT THAT BULLSEYE.

♥

Sunday, July 29, 2007

6:20 PM

please drop dead when i say i am nikyniky's boyfriend .
yes , you are allowed to drop dead right now . (:

LIKE HELL .
ROFL !
I AM SO NOT BI . -_-"

i'm a GIRL .
& I'M STRAIGHT , FOR CRYING OUT LOUD .
that's a reminder to some people .

roflrofl .
you're such a ~~bitch~~ female dog .
in fact , do you have a sense of respect for me ?
at the very least , do you have a sense of respect for yourself ?!
you should be glad .
if i didnt have a sense of respect for myself ,
i would've sceamed out loud right there .
so shut up .
stop talking like you own me .
fish . fish . fish .
FISH OFF , UNDERSTAND ?

& see this heart ? it bleeds for you .
;melissa

Lock and Load, baby,
you ready to Rock and Roll?
HIT THAT BULLSEYE.

♥

2:55 PM

aha . compiling a list of songs that me & chantik would love to have . (:
considering that our tastes our about the same xD

~~1. Fort Minor - Remember The Name~~
2. Corinne May - On The Side Of Me / If I Kissed You
~~3. Switchfoot~~
~~4. Relient K~~
~~5. Rihanna - Umbrella~~
6. The Observatory
7. Electrico
8. Nuna Tuk
9. Artic Monkeys
~~10. Amerie - Take Control Of Me~~
~~11 . The Click Five - Jenny~~
12. The Police
13. Bon Jovi
~~14. Bowling For Soup - Almost~~

okay , that's all we can think of now .
will update if there's more . (:
we'd really love them (:

;melissa

Lock and Load, baby,
you ready to Rock and Roll?
HIT THAT BULLSEYE.

♥

Saturday, July 28, 2007

7:34 PM

TODAY IS SUCH A GREAT DAY <3
HANDSOCKS !
now we know where to accessorize for cosplay gear .
(: went the super long way with 111 back to commonwealth mrt .
then left for the mrt while yt waited for her bus .
today's a super good day ! (:
yay !
haha ! i've got nothing else to say x.x

actually now i feel so lonely .
my parents are out for ndp preview .
and now all i've got is myself , tablet and manga .
i wish i had someone to talk to .
i wish i had you .
i was hoping that someone could go out for dinner with me .
instead of me having to go home and face eating instant noodles again .
alone .
i guess that's too much to ask for .

OHMYSKY xD
;melissa

Lock and Load, baby,
you ready to Rock and Roll?
HIT THAT BULLSEYE.

♥

Friday, July 27, 2007

3:30 PM

oh hell .
you think it's easy for me ?
you all can just sever all your responsibilities .
but hell , i'm supposed to take care of you guys .
i couldnt help it okay ?
i'm god damned pissed of having to sacrifice so much for you guys .
and you all dont even show any sign of gratitude .
could you guys please just show me better attitudes ?
that's what i keep hoping for .

fish loke . :/
that woman keep disturbing us during the paper .
people doing test still want to disturb ah .
zz , you make up your mind first la .
use which timing also cannot decide .
give us 2 more minutes also cannot .
not as if you gave us enough time right .
2 minutes . 2 minutes . 2 minutes . #$%^&*( .
I WANT THOSE 2 MINUTES .
THEN CAN GET 3 MORE MARKS OKAY .
WTF(ISH) .
it's no wonder if your students dont get good grades ,
because you're unfair.
~~bitch~~

was raining in the afternoon .
god damn it all .
couldnt practice .
but good news ,
most of the squad passed 2nd class drill badge !
yay (:
i cant wait for muster parade <3
i want my SGT rank . (:
yayyyyyyyyyy .

if i kissed you , what would Michelangelo say?
;melissa

Lock and Load, baby,
you ready to Rock and Roll?
HIT THAT BULLSEYE.

♥

Thursday, July 26, 2007

10:26 PM

raar , some corinne may songs .
and i cant seem to find the whole lyrics for that song .
oh hell , i like "If I Kissed You" too . (;

Little Superhero Girl
Save Me
Free
Everything in Its Time
Safe in a Crazy World
Let It Go
Angel in Disguise
If I Kissed You
The Birthday Song
Every Beat of My Heart
Free (Radio Edit)

niceeeee :D

I'M SORRY .
I'M SO SORRY .
I DIDNT WANT IT TO HAPPEN THIS WAY .
i feel so guilty that i .. ruined your friendship .
thanks for rubbing it in , woman#1 .
thanks for amplifying the pain , woman#2 .
i wish that i didnt know either of you .
i really feel bad about it !
i'm sorry .
i'll make it up to you .
somehow .

& love what you love , not what loves you .
;melissa

Lock and Load, baby,
you ready to Rock and Roll?
HIT THAT BULLSEYE.

♥

9:17 PM

took care of my cosplay outfits today .
removed all the lint and stored in dust covers . (:
they look pretty .
just that i cant see them through the opaque covers =.=
i'll go buy translucent ones some day .

ANYWAY ,
COSPLAY @ VIVO ON 5 AUG
goinggggg (:
in the same outfit again , i guess .
just that i'll be doing it with a dog collar (if i go far east) & hand socks . (:
hand socks will be bought this sat ! YAY :D
anyone interested in going , email me or msn kay ? (:

HAD NP TRAINING TODAY .
IT WAS FUN .
mostly because i didnt have to do those horrible debriefs
which lead to frustration and anger
and we practiced slow march .
DAMN YOU PEARLLYN KANG . :/
STEAL THE RIFLES THAT I WANTED TO USE .
THEN WALAO , ASK THEM TO COME CANTEEN .
WE THOUGHT WE SETTLE LIAO LOR .
THEN THEY SUDDENLY CAME .
MALU SEH .
MALUUUUUUUU .
THEN THAT KELLY KOH .
FIGHT WITH ME FOR VENUE SOME MORE .
OMG .
I WILL THROW BOTH OF YOU INTO TRASH BINS ONE DAY .
LIKE THAT BULLYING VID . :/
practiced for muster parade .
junjun and jaslin were so funny :x
it's weird though .
if jaslin wasnt around ,
then i'd have to raise the flag .
then who'd stand in front of the squad ? o_o
and going backwards down the stairs is scary !
omg , me and ameerah were freaking out .
our feet were like going over the edge .
SCARY SCARY SCARY .
oh well .
practice tmr again . (:

YAY I REPLIED SIHUI .
AND SHE REPLY SO FAST X_X
i dont think i can reply tmr liao :x
the rate she reply is darn scary .
LOL . :x
and that KIM .
OMG YOU SPYING ON ME OR WHAT T_T"
HOW YOU KNOW WHR I AM WHILE AT THE PARADE SQUARE T_T"

& HANDSOCKS ARE LOVE x3
;melissa

Lock and Load, baby,
you ready to Rock and Roll?
HIT THAT BULLSEYE.

♥

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

5:21 PM

ohmygodohmygodohmygod .
THEY'RE SO TRYING TO KILL US T_T
how the hell can they put tests so close to each other .
i bet one day we'll all revolt .
god damn chem .
stupid oxidation states .
one day we'll talk about the oxidation states of teachers and how covalent & ionic bonds bring people to make love with each other .
raar .
i've had enough of redox .
i've had enough of chem .
i've had enough of this .
T_T"
but still , gotta mug .
and here i am , blogging .

AMC WAS HORRIBLE .
WHAT KIND OF CRAP QNS WERE THOSE .
#$%^&*(
who the hell would care about age .
wtfffffffffffffffffffffffffffff(ish) .
and mdm k was so horrible too .
i mean , people doing test okay !
you still go make noise there .
very irritating you know :/
i still dont like what you said .
when you purposely called my name to say : your grammar not good .
IN FRONT OF THE WHOLE CLASS .
OMG . I SWEAR I WANTED TO #$%^&*( .
what kind of 'professional' are you :/

amaths was so weird .
becky is probably crazy .
she wanted to have a competition .
dont know how it got until : NOSE TO NOSE .
=.="
then she suddenly move her face so close to mine .
scare me seh T_T

walked to mrt station with teevee (:
HAHA . YOU OWE ME TWO TIMES NOW . x:
we'll just wait for a day when we're dismissed early ^w^
AND , YOU DO NOT COME ONLINE :/

i got janice's & sihui's letters today . (:
replied janice ^w^
sihui's one was like super .. well decorated .
paiseh ! i sent her a letter so plain .
and she return one so nicely done . x_x
raaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaar .

okay well , back to redox .
and then , i'll drown myself in english .
yay .

;melissa

Lock and Load, baby,
you ready to Rock and Roll?
HIT THAT BULLSEYE.

♥

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

7:29 PM

yay :D
i changed blogskin !
going with the filmstrip theme .
didnt really have much to write for it . T_T
well , i guess i'll be going now . :x
nothing to blog about today T_T"

/edit:
AHAHA .
folded more bunnies =.="
anyway , if anyone has the song :
On The Side Of Me - Corinne May
please send to me okay ? x:
i love that song <3
cause everyone needs a friend to hold ,
when it's cold outside ,
and there's no place to go .

;melissa

Lock and Load, baby,
you ready to Rock and Roll?
HIT THAT BULLSEYE.

♥

Monday, July 23, 2007

9:31 PM

ROFL . GOOD NEWS <3

From: Goh Sharon Sent: Mon 7/23/2007 10:00 AM To: 3S1 STUDENTS
Cc:
Subject: NO TIMED TRIAL FOR EL ON 24/7

Attachments:

THERE WILL BE NO TIMED TRIAL FOR ENGLISH TOMORROW.

YAY

I'M SO HAPPY :x
and we can see how ms goh went mad :x

and i shall proclaim to my dear master ASH // SUAVE .
I WILL CONTINUE THUNDERING // SHOCKING YOU .
BECAUSE YOU KEEP POKING ME .
ALL'S FAIR :x

i wrote letters to all of them today . (:
but i didnt post xero's letter ):
tmr must post ! ^w^

& you'll be with me wont you ?
;melissa

Lock and Load, baby,
you ready to Rock and Roll?
HIT THAT BULLSEYE.

♥

Sunday, July 22, 2007

6:31 PM

i really dont understand myself now .
i thought i was going to get so mad .
but then when i saw it , i just cried .
because i was so happy .
i'm so glad to see you're happy .

i'm just overflowing with happiness to see you're happy .

Lock and Load, baby,
you ready to Rock and Roll?
HIT THAT BULLSEYE.

♥

6:10 PM

got new manga books . and even the SB magazine ! (:
Ebi & Akiha are so nice together .
and i really think Ebi is wonderful .
even though she wished that Akiha loved her as much as she loves him , she doesnt mind . because he treats her like a sister . and that's love as well . love is wonderful isnt it ? because either way , it doesnt matter when you're in love with someone because you'll only know whether it's true when you can control your jealousy and channel it into caring for that person . true love is what Ebi shows .
even if we only love each other as friends now .. it's still love , right ?

that makes everything so much better . (:
Ebi is my new role model ! v(^w^)v
especially her beliefs about being treated as a woman .

;melissa

Lock and Load, baby,
you ready to Rock and Roll?
HIT THAT BULLSEYE.

♥

Saturday, July 21, 2007

11:35 PM

reached stage IV of MI3 . (:
hahaha . blood island is super weird . :/
plus , GT always seems to be pangseh-ed because of mutinies . :/
LOSER :x
i really wonder how EM likes him T_T

had NCOPC today .
me and pearl arrived earliest .
then the school gates were locked =.=
so we sat outside the school and talked about school .
rawr . the lecture was really .. just revising LMSC stuff .
after that , drills , torturous .
bang together , no hesitation , sharpness , teamwork .
and my throat really hurts from shouting so much .
the CIs were in a good mood today ^w^
so they gave us 10 minutes to change despite us saying 7 minutes .
yay ^^
after that , they let us have games !
but darn , the school was going to close T_T
so they improvised another game .
IT WAS SO FUN ^w^
group A & group B .
ROFLROFLROFL .
we got group A despite moving to the group B area xD
and group A was smaller than group B . :/
pearl , junjun and me made up grp A . (:
haha . we all had foolscap paper .
so when it started , we were all : OKAY . push it as far as possible !
LOL . then because we thought that they asked us to restart again , we got off . then meera ma'am told us it was supposed to be for group B but then , since we got off already , we had to restart T_T"
group B finished first .
hell yeah , my group's papers were torn , and i have a perfectly reasonable explanation for that . :x
so what if i was doing splits . so what if i dragged the paper on the floor . at least we got across :x
xDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
the next round was seriously more fun .
2.5 pieces of paper ! xDDDDDD
1 piece flew away T_T
so meera ma'am tore a TEEEENY little bit for us =.=
pearl had to standing broad to the end . ROFL .
same for me . :/
then junjun had some paper from grp B who had already finished .
teamwork is key . (:
i really hope to foster that in the squad in these coming months .

after NCOPC , left school and waited for mom at bus stop . (:
drizzling so shared an umbrella with DHANU LOVE <3
haha . talked to her , pearllyn and kel about EOY cosfest .
so darn hyped up about EOY <3
mom came (:
then went to raffles place .
she brought me to the optical shop .
the optician was generally nice .
she met her old colleague there , and they started chatting up .
then they went to Polar for 'social drinking' .
gosh . :/
was so bored out of my wits .
lucky mom gave me some time to see the CD shop .
so went in ^w^
and found the 200poundbeauty VCD (:
haha , she allowed me to buy it .
and then with an EXTRAORDINARY STROKE OF GOOD FORTUNE , she bought me GC - GOOD MORNING REVIVAL . O_______O
i wanted LP - MINUTES TO MIDNIGHT too though . >_>
but cant push my luck that far .
after that , walked around some accessory shops to find a choker .
found a mildly loli bag . it was cheap so yeah , just bought it cause it could fit with my costume .
then while we were walking to the car , she decided to go into Fjord .
x_________________X
the designs were really pretty . but the prices were as pretty .
couldnt find the type of choker that i was specifically looking for , which was the velvet type .
but anyway found a nice chain and M-Box . :D
MY M-BOX IS SO PRETTY . (:
it's got a pretty blue star . (:
and inside , it's engraved . ((:
LOVELOVELOVE <3
spent so long in there .
the guy at the shop was a really pushy marketer . :/
well , he's got techniques , that one i've got to admit .
and his style aint half bad .
e.g. the German ring .
it was so much prettier than the other black one . (:
and managed to persuade mom to get the German ring .
it's amazing how the designer's mindset can affect the customers .
he said that the history of the ring was that at the launch of the ring ,
the German designer was invited .
and on the board it wrote (in German of course , so there was a translation) :
i am confident that you will walk out of this room with either one of my rings ( there were two) .

and true enough ! everyone in the room was wearing at least one of the rings .
gosh :/
raar , okay .
enough for today .
i gotta wake up early tmr as well . :/
even my weekends arent days for resting anymore T_T

& wouldnt it help if we just tried?
;melissa

Lock and Load, baby,
you ready to Rock and Roll?
HIT THAT BULLSEYE.

♥

Friday, July 20, 2007

7:26 PM

i've been hooked to this book . :D
The Killer's Cousin - Nancy Werlin .
it's so nice . :D

went with pearl to queensway today .
god . T_T
walked up and down and up and down .
finally decided to just pay for it .
and then before leaving , decided to get some lunch first ^^v
decided on laksa xDDDD
waited so long for a seat T_T
then finally those three girls left .
and hurriedly took the place .
ordered two laksas .
and then after that , we both didnt want cockles .
but the guy heard it as yes T_T
we both said MAI HUM okay ?! :/
just left the cockles aside .
then decided to get a drink ^w^
walked to the other stall , then waited waited waited .
stupidly .
see pearl T_T
wrong stall !
SHE queued at the wrong place :x
waited for no use T_T
after that ordered milo dinosaur :D
it was so funny .
she thought the woman had taken her order but she didnt after all :/
so waited for that guy to take the order .
then after that he walked away =.=
raaaaaaaar . next time i shall never buy food or drinks with pearl again T_T
after that , went home .
stupid pearl pangseh me by taking 93 T_T
then i waited for 51 to come .
after reaching clementi mrt , it started pouring T_T
just had to keep my book&handphone&tablet safe .
so was crouching over them .
luckily by the time i reached home , it wasnt raining so heavily anymore .

horrible . cant they even do maths nowadays ?!
i mean , what the hell .
you asked me what's 4/5 .
i told you it's 0.8 .
and then you didnt want to believe me .
after that i asked you to try it out or you'd never know .
then you really really didnt want to .
GOD . you're sec 1 for crying out loud !
these questions are for like what ?
primary school kids ?
goodness . i have no idea how you even managed to scrape through .
really was freaking disappointed . :/
and you still asked me what's 4/25 .
disappointing . disappointing .

and i really conclude that they're obnoxious .
god , it was so irritating .
i mean , who're YOU to say stuff about us ?
much less something like : you're such a slut .
excuse me , if you say other people are sluts , then you're a slut as well .
got manners ?
if not , get a life please .
okay mel , stop it . stop it . they arent worth it . they're just stupid asses who want to piss you off .
i need to get a grip on myself T_T

andand , i want to talk to somebody ! anybody ! T_T
psychologist also can .
see , i dont deny that i'm going mentally unstable ! T_T"

& psychodrama .
;melissa

Lock and Load, baby,
you ready to Rock and Roll?
HIT THAT BULLSEYE.

♥

Thursday, July 19, 2007

11:20 PM

oh god .
i'm in deep shit .
dont misunderstand me .
you yourself know i'm referring to you .
what's written here is not about you .
i am not amused .

Lock and Load, baby,
you ready to Rock and Roll?
HIT THAT BULLSEYE.

♥

10:08 PM

i just decided on this .
no i wont dwell on that situation anymore .
cause i scare people when i'm emo . and mostly i scare myself x.x
thanks for always being my friend . (:
and whatever , i still insist that i am crappy sometimes .
because you are too . ^^v
i really dont know who to rely on if you aint around .

running away , forget yesterday ,
we'll make the great escape .
we wont hear a word they say ,
they dont know us any way .

i seem to moodswing ALOT .
gosh . my feelings are like a freaking wild rollercoaster ride .
one hour it might be : OH MY GOD . WHAT THE HELL . #$%^&*(
next hour : no . no . no . *buckets of tears*
next hour : wow ! cool !
next hour : SHIT . WHAT THE HELL DID I DO :/
conclusion , i moodswing .
and i cant blame it on PMS this time x.x

RAAAAAAAAAAR RINGAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA . :/
HOW DARE YOU SAY I LOOK LIKE MINNIE MOUSE T_T"

& tired of that .
;melissa

Lock and Load, baby,
you ready to Rock and Roll?
HIT THAT BULLSEYE.

♥

7:57 PM

i bet i was being a horrible person during np today .
god .
i really shouldnt let my feelings affect others .
really kind of disappointed .
with myself .
yeah , gosh .
i am so screwed up .
and i kept telling myself , I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU .
but everytime i said that ,
i just couldnt help it !
i only felt like i was doing myself wrong because that's a huge lie .
i dont hate you .
in fact , i really really treasure you as a friend .
and it means so much to me .
because you're actually the only one who'll listen and understand .
no one else will . you arent even patronizing !
other people listen , nod at the appropriate moments , act sympathetic and patronize me .
god . i'm sick of that .
and i really really love what you do to me .
you just listen and inject humour into some points , and then you cheer me up somehow .
i do treasure you loads .
please , dont sever our friendship because of this .

i really wanted to scream out just now . cry even .
dont people know nowadays the emotional and physical stress that we undergo ?
my head was splitting . and i just .. had to control myself .
i cant embarrass myself in front of everyone again .
i cant cry in school again . i cant ever cry again .
god . i cant even believe i'm crying now .
and i just told myself to be strong .
i'm such a weak person .
i hate myself for that .

and now i understand what Cal was searching for .
solace . and that's why fire gave .
maybe i shouldnt even have delved into it .
emotionally immature adolescents should never harbour too impressive or unrealistic dreams .
because they end up being hurt .

at least i'll be happier when i go to queensway tmr with pearl .
at least i'll get random around her .
at least i'll remember the great funny crap that we came up with together .
boots can talk cause they've got tongues.

i'm really sorry if i let you down .
didnt know what to say .
and i know you're keeping something again .
okay that's it , mel , stop dwelling on the topic .
great . now i'll start developing alter egos .

& all i really want is your forgiveness .
;melissa

Lock and Load, baby,
you ready to Rock and Roll?
HIT THAT BULLSEYE.

♥

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

10:56 PM

i'm so unsure .
i wasnt angry with you .
i was angry at myself .
gosh .
freak it .
sorry okay ?
sorry i got you into this situation .
you can just back out if you want .
god .
just dont be such a prick .
people have feelings too you know .
and i'm still capable of thinking .
geez .

shit . i just ruined my mood .
and shit . i'll probably just ruin everyone's mood .
my head really hurts . i just want to cry . god .

what's wrong with me .
i always expected this to happen .
i just couldnt help it .
oh my god .
what kind of friend am i .
shit . shit . shit .
i'm so sorry . i really cant put this into words .
no , you wouldnt understand .
i really dont think you would .
and fine , i dont understand you either .

~~SOMEONE PLEASE . SAVE ME FROM MYSELF .~~
built up and then crushed down again .
that must've been what was so emotionally gripping about it .
maybe one day you'll see me turn into a pyromaniac like in that book .
god . i cant take this .
i'll just .. let it all out .

can someone talk to me ?
someone that'll understand me without judging me ?
i really wanted just you to do exactly that .
but you dont seem to be able to .

why am i acting like a downright bitch ?
god . i have no idea .
so sue me for being a bitch .
anything wrong with that ?
maybe you should try going through what i'm going through .
you'll feel the pain .
and i wonder how long it'll take before you snap too .
it's just too much .

its pouring now .
and it wont stop .

Lock and Load, baby,
you ready to Rock and Roll?
HIT THAT BULLSEYE.

♥

7:36 PM

RAAAAAAAR . VINNY WAS BEING AN IDIOT :/
sasa ni de tou :/

god . i wish she'd stop calling out whenever she sees me . ):

on the bus ride home today ,
saw a VERY familiar face .
o______o
and she recognised me !
and she remembered my name zomgwtfbbq .
x.x
I FORGOT HERS x_____X
SO SO SO PAISEH .
gomenasai ):

and dhanu love is coming back tomorrow . (:
hope you're feeling much better !

& tumult against emotions .
;melissa

Lock and Load, baby,
you ready to Rock and Roll?
HIT THAT BULLSEYE.

♥

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

7:12 PM

fish you . i feel so violated .
it still bugs me what she did earlier . :/

oh well , happy birthday in advance to monkey (:
I'M SO SO SO SO PAISEH THAT I WISH YOU HAPPY BIRTHDAY ONE WK IN ADVANCE X.X
well i told you i cant remember birthdays right x.x

amaths & pure lit mock today .
mrs r rushed us through the first qn .
and i practically just regurgitated any crap that i thought of onto my paper for the second part of the qn . gosh . i'm so obviously gonna fail lit . :/
that doesnt matter .
i still love lit anyway <3
amaths was .... indescribable .
even teevee didnt know how to do 3 qns . x.x
if she doesnt know , we have no hope .
i skipped around 4 qns .
dang .

oh . we had the letter writing thing today .
crap her . :/
she told us to send it to ourselves .
i think charlotte & teevee were really crappy today -.-
what the hell .
writing to someone whom you dont even know the address .
haha !

becky was really lame again today . :/
you're perpetually lame and immature . xD
first barney , then sesame street , then muppets ..
what're you going to come up with next :/

& if i held all the world in my hands .
;melissa

Lock and Load, baby,
you ready to Rock and Roll?
HIT THAT BULLSEYE.

♥

10:24 AM

god . i'm probably afflicted with some kind of mental illness . x.x
i just cant stop thinking about it .
but every time i think it , i just want to hold on to it .

AND SOMEONE JUST HAD TO MAKE MY DAY SO HORRIBLE .
SAVE ME .
what the hell .
did she really have to come up to me and finger the nape of my neck ?
gosh . i can still feel the cold running down my spine .
it's true that you care alot about us because we're close to you ,
but REALLY , DO YOU HAVE TO GO TO THAT EXTENT ?!
no one wants to know you're lesbian , you know.
and one more thing , i'm straight .
gosh . stop targeting me .
if you want , there're loads more lesbians elsewhere .
and stop traumatizing all of us .
it's so .. argh . disgusting .

i'm feeling so creeped out now ):

i want to go out at night :/
gosh . i feel like i dont have an outside life . :/
i mean , i only go out in the afternoons with my friends and that's when school is dismissed early .
i wish i'd be able to go out and stay out at night .
but i guess it's all for the best .
maybe they'll give me that freedom soon . (:

monkey ! dont emo okay :D
when it's tough , all you have to do is be tougher !
thanks for the hug xD
haha !
i'll hug you if it feels better , but maybe it wont . x.x

& i wish you were here .
;melissa

p.s. thanks marie ! (:
haha ! she's the one who helped me get the wireless profile back xD

Lock and Load, baby,
you ready to Rock and Roll?
HIT THAT BULLSEYE.

♥

Monday, July 16, 2007

10:29 PM

gosh ! it was so surprising .
like it was right out of a book !
comparable to Hana-Kimi - Izumi Sano X Mizuki Ashiya .
see nad , good things do happen .
and i absolutely love every second of it .
it's just a bit confusing currently .
like munteng said: i'm in heaven >w<

chantik finally sent us the pics !
so look (:

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i've got kame-chan on my head !
GOSH SHE'S SO ADORABLE (:

look ! we're even camwhoring in the toilet ! xD

gosh chantik .
did you have to take me in such an unglam setting ? :/

that's what we call LOLITA.LOVE (:

n2 looks so elegant with that feather fan ! :D

WHOOOOO ~
i'm the quadruplet x.x
quite a big diff though ):

GOSH . YOU HAVE GOT TO LOOK AT THAT CROSSDRESSING :x
N2 YOU'VE GOT TO CROSSDRESS ONE DAY TOO xDDDDDD

pretty cool weapon eh ? (:
n2 wants one too .
and so do i ! xD

freya and elda . (:
prettyyyyyyyyyyyyy .

there were quite a few more pretty shots .
but they're distorted x.x

& is this what you call heaven ?
;melissa

Lock and Load, baby,
you ready to Rock and Roll?
HIT THAT BULLSEYE.

♥

7:31 PM

GOD . I FEEL SO STUPID .
I'M SORRY THAT I'M SUCH AN IDIOT OKAY .

gosh . i really want to !
it's the truth .

but somehow , i cant react appropriately.
;melissa

Lock and Load, baby,
you ready to Rock and Roll?
HIT THAT BULLSEYE.

♥

5:03 PM

oh my god .
becky was so crazy again today !
too much energy again xD
AND I REALLY REALLY REALLY WONDER WHAT YOU HAVE IN YOUR IPOD .
SERIOUSLY !
what the hell x.x
barney songs ?!
everyone's a little bit racist ?!!
THE INTERNET IS FOR PORN ?!!!!!!!!!
BECKYBECKYBECKY :/

super bored .
i really wanna cosplay again .
but this year , i just want to get accessories .
STARTING WITH A CHOKER .
PLEASEOHPLEASEOHPLEASEIWANTACHOKERSOBADLY .
T______________T

& love is just irony adorned elegantly .
;melissa

Lock and Load, baby,
you ready to Rock and Roll?
HIT THAT BULLSEYE.

♥

Sunday, July 15, 2007

10:36 AM

OH I FORGOT TO SAY .
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY , PEARLLYN . ;D
WE LOVE YOU !
AND N2 LOVES YOU SOOOO MUCH TOO ;D

& unduly favourable ;D
;melissa

Lock and Load, baby,
you ready to Rock and Roll?
HIT THAT BULLSEYE.

♥

9:33 AM

went for cosfest on 14/7/07 . ;D
it was so nice !
the supposed big group shrank to a meagre FOUR people . :/
namely : myself , yingtian , chantik & n2 . ;D
yesyes n2 , cosfest brings people together <3
me and yt met at dover first .
unsuccessful camwhoring in the mrt cause of flash . :/
then we went to far east together !
dang . blood romance was closed when we arrived .
AND WE TOOK REALLY LONG TO ARRIVE BECAUSE I GOT US LOST FINDING THE UNDERPASS x.x
walked around more . ;D
then finally frm the third floor , we saw blood romance open ! :D
we walked arnd abit and then couldnt help it !
so we went to blood romance !
I SAW THE CHECKERED SKIRT AGAIN !
115 . :x
yt helped me ask abt the dog collar .
it came with the wrist band too .
it cost 49.90 . :/
geez !
so ex .
i want a choker so bad . :/
yt tried on an outfit .
after that i tried on the checkered skirt one too . ;D
yt's was so pretty !
but she didnt have enough money . :/
anyway , HORROR .
when i was trying on my outfit ,
YT'S SHOE STRAP BROKE x.x
so after that , we basically ran around finding new shoes for her .
FINALLY found a store that sold some nice shoes .
heck , everything was for cosfest so we just got them .
both of the pairs of shoes that she liked were the last ones .
one size 36 , the other size 40 .
36 was too small .
40 a little too big .
heck . i told her we'd tie ribbon to make it stay .
then the shop assistant had problems finding the other shoe x.x
just waited and waited .
yt tried on the socks tht she just bought frm blood romance .
it's exactly the same as mine , just that mine's white and hers is black .
after that , ran back to blood romance .
i bought that outfit .<3
went back to mrt .
so crowded .
we decided that even if we wanted to fall ,
we didnt have any space to fall =.=
rushed for time .
and we were seriously dehydrated .
changed train at city hall .
geez !
the mrt was so crowded too .
stood till arnd simei .
and then finally thr were seats .
sat down and discussed what to do .
then n2 called yt and said that she wouldnt be able to make it on time so she asked us to go first .
but we dont know how x.x
so yt asked her .
she gave us directions .
too easy to seem true x.x
after that , waited at pasir ris for chantik .
that idiot :/
she arrived at 3 when we agreed on 2.30 =.=
before she came , me and yt spied a few cosplayers (:
pretty lolita styles .
though theirs was more of punkish lolita .
chantik felt overdressed . :/
well , nevermind .
after that , went to the bus interchange and looked for the buses to go to downtown east .
geez !
it was so lucky i saw the cosplayers going up on the bus .
or else we would've missed it .
got on the bus .
stupidly nearly missed the downtown east stop .
again it was lucky i saw it . -.-
those two were like super blur xD
yt , you really dont want to stand there . xDDD
went to the toilet straightaway .
changed . warned chantik she'd feel underdressed when we came out xD
and she did !
yt was fully clothed in black .
mine was blackwhite . xD
adjusted head dress , ribbons , shoes .
aw dang i dont like the heels . :/
i nearly fell over .
camwhored in the toilet .
chantik's got the pictures .
stupid woman's probably gonna blackmail us with it .
next time we'll just drag her to far east and make her try on some outfits too .
after that walked to the tent .
it was hugeeeeeeeeeeeeeee .
walked arnd abit .
then n2 arrived .
yt ran to her .
but i couldnt run cause
1. i wasnt even wearing glasses and couldnt see properly -.-
2. HEELS HERE , HELLO . -.-
so walked to her .
introductions ;D
went into the green tent .
looked around the stalls .
then saw this white feather fan .
n2 bought it ;D
from 25 bucks bargain dao 20 bucks . LOL .
and using me and yt as bargaining tools -.-
these lovely two lolitas
ROFL !
before we left the tent ,
chantik spied some lolita triplets .
she asked me to take pictures with them .
I GOT FORCED INTO IT !
so i was their QUADRUPLET ;D
before we left ,
they wanted to take a picture of me . ;D
so all of us posed . ^^
after that went to macs .
they ate .
and i stole some of chantik's sundae xD
that was the first time we saw Chii eat !
ROFLROFLROFL !
it's not possible for a persocom to eat though :/
then saw Freya and Elda too !
WOW ! :D
there were so many VK cosplayers .
i guess LOLITA was a better choice than VK .
walked arnd again .
and then went into the tent again .
before we went into the tent ,
me and yt were stopped to take photos .
chantik and n2 didnt notice :/
and they walked on .
after finish taking photos ,
luckily we found chantik taking photos of other cosplayers .
and she was soooooooo psyched about the crossdresser xD
n2 firstly said : he doesnt have boobs to pull it off -.-"
walked around the tent again .
YT BOUGHT THE HEAD DRESS :D
hahaha !
n2 will get the reputation of being a bargainer xD
watched the singing competition .
the results came out after we changed .
and dang they were really lame .
i mean , the best singer didnt win :/
after that , since chantik left earlier , and yt's dad and sister had come to bring her to far east ,
i took the mrt with n2 .
hahaha ! she always talks abt np stuff with np ppl x.x
so talked abt np !
& BOY , DOES SHE LOVE PEARLLYN KANG . xD
I FEEL SO INSULTED ):
SHE SAID I LOOKED LIKE A SEC 1 ! :/
ANDANDAND . SHE SAID I WAS SHORTTTT . >:|
HAHAHAHAHA . xD
it was darn fun .
and on the ride , discussed about random stuff .
dropped at tiong , she carried on to JE and then changed , i think .

all in all , it was a great experience .
i'll continue going for cosfests . ;D

& LOLITA.LOVE<3
;melissa

Lock and Load, baby,
you ready to Rock and Roll?
HIT THAT BULLSEYE.

♥

Friday, July 13, 2007

8:42 PM

FRIDAY THE 13TH IS A GREAT DAY <3
i managed to pass NAPFA - Standing Broad Jump with a D . ;D
see how great a day it is ?
(background info : I CANT PASS SBJ FOR NUTS . :/)

AH DEY .
MANDY . YOU ....
you and suave and diva so shy de meh .
three people 'gang' up on one person very traumatizing you know xD
teh mandeh was being so lame . :/
eyecandy ? ROFL .
i'll ROFLMAO before that'll happen .
oh and MANDEH .. eff you too . xDDD
i'm going on saturday , so too bad xP

went out with charlotte , zee and kel to tiong .
bought a cat cushion with charlotte ^w^
KITTY ! <3
she'd better wrap it & remember to bring it !

after that , charlotte went home .
so me , zee and kel went far east <3
i'll tell you , far east is my new love , man .
it's like COSPLAY HEAVEN .
lolita shops ! <3
the only letdown was that there wasnt any black ribbon . ):
but yt says she'll check if her mom has some ! :D
went to Blood Romance again .
zee & kel tried on the outfits .
k: it makes me look short !
m: you already ARE short !
k: i dont want to look SHORTER .
ROFLROFLROFL .
fell in love with that skirt <3
checkered ; blackwhite .
50 bucks . must save up again .
and me and zee both LOVED the blouse .
it's so pretty !
50 bucks too . :/
gosh . we've GOT to save up , zee !
kel's mindless wandering found us a wonderful cosplay stall .
OH MY GOSH I SAW THE BLACK LACY UMBRELLA .
it was so o_O overdone ?
but anyway , i'd rather carry a teddy bear , still .
we went down to chameleon to find black ribbon , or a necklace .
i'd have loved that choker .
but it's so ex . :/
tsk . save up .
can you believe it =.=
chameleon doesnt even sell RIBBON .
=.="
started looking for necklaces .
we kept searching for the 4.90 ones !
found a pretty nice one .
kel wanted it too , but the stall assistant said it was the only one .
anyway , they were fixing the lighting so there were loads of ladders .
so we couldnt see the middle ones .
but zee saw one that was 4.90 too and was really pretty !
zee had to stick her hand in through the ladders to reach it xD
but after that , when she got it , the ladders were moved away =.=
haha !
saw some others .
found another pretty nice one .
but didnt get it .
cause the contrast is present , even though it can be termed 'sweet contrast' .
found the design that kel wanted too !
so took it for her . (:
went to pay .
kel said that she looked like she was buying it for me :/
HEY I PAID YOU OKAY !
YOU JUST PASSED THE MONEY TOGETHER -.-
after that , left for the mrt .
zee was really good at dissing that fellow off .
10 seconds of your time . right .
i'll take only 10 seconds of your time to punch your face if you make that 'face' again .
sickening .
zee went the other way . ):
british council .
well , me and kel went by the tiong way .
she got off at that stop .
i went all the way to clementi .
took 184 back .
gosh . it was darn congested .
then there was this horrible woman .
she kept putting her stuff down and taking up so much space . :/
it wouldnt have been a surprise if someone 'accidentally' stepped on it .
geez . came home quite late .
and not feeling quite well .
argh . i swear the congestion in the bus was so ..
i just felt like fainting .
maybe i shld've stolen some of charlotte's fries T_T"

i feel a sense of achievement .
rofl not really .
fold x2 . rofl .
=.="
nvm i will not be lame .

becca was really lame today .
beckybeckybecky :/
if you have that much energy ,
just work it off !
ROFL .
i cant believe you even went to the window and 'screamed' .
BECAUSE YOUR SCREAMING SOUNDED MORE LIKE GROANING . ROFL !
it was darn funny .
and who said you could bang my table ):
my poor poor table .
rofl .
and MY PENCILCASE .
ARGHHHHHH :/
thank god yourself for putting it down .
or i'd have grabbed yours and concussed you with it ! xD
i conclude that rebecca is a really funny person xD

& CHECKERED ;blackwhitemontage .
;melissa

Lock and Load, baby,
you ready to Rock and Roll?
HIT THAT BULLSEYE.

♥

Thursday, July 12, 2007

10:46 PM

hug me .
please .
i want comfort . ):
i'd want someone like my squadmates to hug me . ):
but they arent around .
i'd want someone like the slaphappies to hug me . ):
but they arent around either .
i'd want you to hug me . ):
but you arent around either .

it's so sad that no one understands me .
from what i see ,
everything they know about me is superficial .
oh mel , you're so cute/strict/nice/understanding/caring/tolerant.
does anyone even care about who i really am ?
i want to open up sometimes .
but i guess , not many people want to know about my real self .
other than kelly , marie , tab & chantik .
whom i can tell almost anything and they'd just make me feel better somehow .
there's also munteng , livvi & charlotte too !
they're always there for me .
all of those stated above mean the world to me .
and of course , some friends on msn who actually listen to my ranting .
they make up a huge part of my life .
if they werent around , i swear i'd die from all the emotional stress & hurt .
thank you all for being there for me .

i love you guys .

;melissa

Lock and Load, baby,
you ready to Rock and Roll?
HIT THAT BULLSEYE.

♥

10:22 PM

ROFL .
hear all the random and stupid stuff we have to say after not being in contact for more than a few months .
yes , it's true .
I GOT HIGH .
YOU CANT BLAME ME ! xD

WE CAME UP WITH :
marie - rabid gerbil ! :D (I CLAIM FULL CREDIT FOR THIS) . notice how innocent she looks , but yet has that CRAZY MANIACAL look in her eye ?
myself - TREE . ROFL IT STARTED AS : MEL YOU SOUND LIKE A TREE . which was supposed to be : mel you sound like a three -year old . (CHANTIK GETS CREDIT FOR THIS xD) .
chantik - bright eyed and bushy . -.- her teacher came up with that .
yt - PINK ZEBRA ! ROFL . well i was being random and came up with pink zebra x:
chantik's sis - YODELLING YELLOW RABBIT . OMG ROFL ! :D SHE CAME UP WITH THE YODELLING , I CAME UP WITH YELLOW RABBIT . ROFL !

& it's hard to be the role model .
;melissa.

Lock and Load, baby,
you ready to Rock and Roll?
HIT THAT BULLSEYE.

♥

9:23 PM

WHOA .
SHE WAS LIKE .. NICE . :D
she said i was neat . rofl . *proud proud* xD

I KEEP STARING AT THE COSTUME .
and i'm so dying to wear it !
IT'S SO PRETTY PRETTY PRETTY .
OMG .

ah dey .
everytime i feel better ,
SOMETHING just has to make it worse again .
i'm such a failure .
meh , i couldnt even control myself .
it's no wonder i cant get their respect .
maybe i wasnt good enough for that role after all .
i cant stand it anymore !
why do i have to put up with all this .
it's so disappointing !
i really wanted to cry .
and that's why i couldnt help myself .
and this is where i incorporate geography ,
when lines of weakness are shown in the rock (which appeared solid ) , destructive waves take advantage of that and strike hard . this thus breaks apart the rock , spreading it into dozens of tiny little pieces .
argh .
i know they're trying to help .
but every time i talk to them ,
i feel so bad .
and they can stare at me and somehow unnerve me .
it's so scary .
traumatising , as they put it .
i need to take action . ):

& i'm so unsure .
;melissa

Lock and Load, baby,
you ready to Rock and Roll?
HIT THAT BULLSEYE.

♥

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

11:11 PM

YEAH <3
got a ~~classic~~ SWEET lolita outfit ! <3
it costs a bomb .
but oh well , it's worth it ! :D

kawaii-ne!

& ONEPIECED . x:
;melissa

Lock and Load, baby,
you ready to Rock and Roll?
HIT THAT BULLSEYE.

♥

7:42 PM

goodness .
i'm super screwed . :/
how can i keep saying the wrong stuff at the wrong time .
anyway , the only thing to keep my spirits up is that i'm going far east later ! <3
I WANT A CLASSIC LOLI SKIRT <3
couldnt find anything lolita-like x:
scared of the price though . ):

booked full ! :D
I LOVE THIS WK ;D

but i dread going to have to deal with them .
i dont know how to react to it .
undoubtedly , i love them .
but still ..

do you know what it's like to have to keep everything to yourself ?
i want to scream it out loud .
but i cant .
i'll embarrass other if not myself .
i dont mind embarassing myself if it's for this cause though .

and i dont even know who or what i'm supposed to trust now .

& what if it was all a waste of time ?
my heart bleeds every moment ,
just so you know .
;melissa

Lock and Load, baby,
you ready to Rock and Roll?
HIT THAT BULLSEYE.

♥

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

10:39 PM

ARGH .
why must you keep forcing me to call ? :/
i dont want to .
means i dont want to .
PAI SEH CAN ANOT .
WALAO .
SORRY I BOTHERED YOU IN THE FIRST PLACE .
YOU DONT NEED TO BE SO PISSED OFF .

& maybe , you're the one who's gonna save me .
;melissa

Lock and Load, baby,
you ready to Rock and Roll?
HIT THAT BULLSEYE.

♥

8:42 PM

ROFL !
I READ IT SIA .
IT WAS DARN ENTERTAINING CAN .
who the hell would believe that you have so many audi dars ?
your obnoxious behavior already puts them off !
get a life . yeah .
if you dont know what you're dealing in ,
please , just leave it alone .
and if you cant even do it ,
PLEASE LA .
DONT MAKE A FOOL OF YOURSELF !
i know you cant do 188 . ^^
do you have proof ?
what i saw was 99bpm . 8k fm .
WOW . -_-
shall i show you 164 8k fm ?
or even better , 150 8k cfm ?
GET A LIFE LA WOMAN .
not as if we want to see you around also .
but we live with it .
it makes me feel kind of sick actually .
how many stupid promises are you going to make to yourself that you cant keep ?
like i promised myself , and it's still going strong .
i will not get a rl bf till sec sch is over . ^^v
can YOU do that too ?
commitments .
commitments .
your worst nightmare .
in truth , you're a mean little person .
who just wants love because you've been seriously deprived of it .
go show it somewhere else .
sympathy votes can count .
but not here .

& god damn emotions .
;melissa

Lock and Load, baby,
you ready to Rock and Roll?
HIT THAT BULLSEYE.

♥

7:54 PM

I GOT KEL TO GO FOR COSFEST TOO <3
YAY ! :D
argh . manman . MAKE YR SATURDAY FREE . ):

classic lolita <3

i'm really sorry .
argh .

no one would know what i want them to feel .

had chem SPA today .
ROFL . EASY SIA !
but no leakage of the qn x:
i dont want it to be annulled !
CTI CTI CTI ! <3
OMG .
THE GUITARIST LIKE SERANATING TO XL LA . ROFL !
the acoustic guitarist so poor thing. ):
string snapped .

after chem mock ,
me , teevee and charlotte were playing monkey island on her comp .
she is like HOPELESS at RPGs . x_x
will continue playing tmr if there's time ;D

& it'll never be a reality .
but i'll still keep dreaming .
;melissa

Lock and Load, baby,
you ready to Rock and Roll?
HIT THAT BULLSEYE.

♥

Monday, July 09, 2007

9:40 PM

i screwed up the chance . ):
my god .
sorry .
please , give me that chance again !
i didnt mean it ! ):

& the bleeding is internal .
;melissa

Lock and Load, baby,
you ready to Rock and Roll?
HIT THAT BULLSEYE.

♥

8:51 PM

FINALLY SUCCEEDED IN GETTING TOGETHER A COSTUME <3
CLASSIC LOLITA AS YT SAID <3

and it looks like the COSFEST = COSFEAST . ;D
YAY FOR XIAN WHO'S PROVIDING CANDIFLOSS . ROFL .
WE SHALL GO AS MOPHEADS =_=

& MOPHEAD LOVE x3
;melissa

Lock and Load, baby,
you ready to Rock and Roll?
HIT THAT BULLSEYE.

♥

8:12 PM

5 x 25 = 125 .
125 x 2 = 250 .
THAT'S HARSH .
OMG .

i cant really imagine anything more depressing that having to watch it .
or rather having to hear about it .
and after that , there's no guilt at all .
is there going to be change at all ?
i cry because of that.
it's no doubt there's care.
but there's lack of it being shown.

i remembered who i looked up to in primary school .
random ? yeah .
i remember LILI jiejie ! x:
the clarinetist in bpps school band when i just joined .
she taught me and shixian how to play the clarinet . <3
when she left , she gave me a present . <33
and she went to SC .
became band major of the swiss winds !
i wonder how she's doing now .
inspirational x:
haha !

darn .
i keep thinking of primary school stuff !
especially people in my ex classes .
o_____o
suddenly i think that alan looks like christopher sir .
o______O"
OMG .
ROFL .
then now i remember alan's birthday .
it's the same as bryan's !
O_O
VALENTINES' DAY GUYS . ROFL .

i remember when me , jingning & kq used to sit together .
we were writing in this book & passing it around .
the antics . they're priceless . <3

and that PE lesson .
truth or dare .
ohmygoodness . rofl .
i dare SP to go mimic a teacher !
LOL .

ah .
time to return to the present. ):
anyway ,
i love EL oral !
I DONT LIKE MY INVIGILATOR .
HE CUT ME OFF WHILE I WAS TALKING ABOUT PART 2 .
THEN CUT ME OFF AGAIN WHILE I WAS TALKING ABOUT PART 3 .
T________T"
I GOT LOTS MORE TO SAY ONE OKAY .
AHHHHHHHH . #$%^&*( .

she was being nice today !
i mean , she agreed to teach us .
but , ah , after i talked to her , felt like crying sia .
how she talk like criticising me , us , everyone .
T_T

IWANTSOMEONETOHUGME . ROFL . NO I'M JUST KIDDING . THANKS .

& HEARTSTRINGS x3
;melissa

Lock and Load, baby,
you ready to Rock and Roll?
HIT THAT BULLSEYE.

♥

Sunday, July 08, 2007

9:49 PM

AHHHH . T_T
i want the song The Great Escape - Boys Like Girls . <3
and it looks like i'm highly appealing ?
ROFL .

& it's in my head .
;melissa

Lock and Load, baby,
you ready to Rock and Roll?
HIT THAT BULLSEYE.

♥

8:50 PM

ahaha !
finally got round to getting all the crescentian rm pictures . (:
WE ARE CRAZY .
THERE IS NO DOUBT ABOUT THAT . :D

yay us <3

& oh look at that flutterby .
;melissa

Lock and Load, baby,
you ready to Rock and Roll?
HIT THAT BULLSEYE.

♥

3:47 PM

geez !
i didnt go for the cosfest yesterday .
regret .
yt's 'booked' me for next week's one though ;D
cant wait to see the outfits !
gothic lolita ! <3
i swear i'll buy at least ONE outfit by myself !
:D
either VK or GL . ;D

cant wait !

& tug once more .
;melissa

Lock and Load, baby,
you ready to Rock and Roll?
HIT THAT BULLSEYE.

♥

Saturday, July 07, 2007

6:49 PM

070707 ! LIVE EARTH DAY ! :D
anyway , cant wait for the concert showing on tv !
7 pm . o_o
sorry manman , cant make it for the rm .

YAY !
I GOT THE SEVENTH BOOK OF FY ! :D
<3

ahahaha !
omg i'm so high on Sano and Nakatsu . x_x"
PLUS I JUST FINISHED PLAYING MONKEY ISLAND 2 ! :D
ROFL .
YESTERDAY FINISHED MONKEY ISLAND 1 ! :DD
will try finishing monkey island 3 when teevee returns it .
i wont give up ! *determined*

oh well , guess that's all . ;D
SUPPORT LIVE EARTH DAY !
070707 !!!!!! xD

& how appropriate , you piss me off .
;melissa

Lock and Load, baby,
you ready to Rock and Roll?
HIT THAT BULLSEYE.

♥

Friday, July 06, 2007

4:57 PM

i dont believe that anybody knows how i feel.

RAWR .
SI XIAN .
I AM NOT A KID OKAY !
T____T
LIKE YOU VERY OLD ! T_T"
but anyway , i have to admit , it's also xian who makes me laugh alot of the time . ^w^

need i talk about it ?
i repeat the same thing every time .
finally , punishment .
i'd gladly have done double if anything would change .

watch the tears flow down,
and if you really care,
show me some change.

teevee and me traded monkey island CDs !
she got 1 and 2 . and i had 3 and 4 !
how coincidental :D
we're so hooked on to monkeys LOL .

yt told me there's cosfest tmr . ):
maybe i cant go .
anyway , tmr's a special day !
070707 !
must buy the SEVENTH book on the SEVENTH day of the SEVENTH month of the SEVENTH year this millenium !
ROFL .

i want to write more .
expressiveness .
it's the easiest way to express oneself . (:

ANDAND .
i saw jerome's sis yesterday !
FINALLY SIA .

ANDANDAND !
welcome monkey to -IKAN-s . LOL . xD

& tonight , we part .
;melissa

Lock and Load, baby,
you ready to Rock and Roll?
HIT THAT BULLSEYE.

♥

Wednesday, July 04, 2007

5:34 PM

came up with this emo poem .
could have been from reflecting from that book .
could have been from vivid imagination .

do you know how much pain you caused me ?
the amplification of the pain ,
doubled !
tripled !
quadrupled !
all upon seeing that note .
the severity , the harshness , the villainy of it all !
and the utter crime .
that will never be erased from memory .
as much as time threatens to warp it ,
i swear that i will remember it .
even to the day i die .
as i recount your mortifying act ,
the soul bleeds .
and the heart dies .
of how you had been maliciously keeping it from me .
how you had pretended nothing had happened when something did .
i know i must have been blind .
not to see the conspicuous scene unfolding before my eyes .
i was willing to see so much less
that i closed my eyes to everything else .
i regret as much .
for i never have felt such concentrated hurt .
one day you may hear of an epitaph ,
hidden and controversial feelings inscribed and blended into the richness .
will you feel any sort of guilt ?
it is doubtful that you will .
for you have proved yourself to be
cold blooded , uncaring , nonchalant .
untouched by the cruel acts surrounding yourself .
perhaps you have strengthened yourself not to see them .
but even in that cold hard shell of yours ,
you will be able to feel it .
what goes round comes around .
and one day , retribution will be paid to you .
severly and appropriately .
you did it unto yourself .
and only you can pay the final price .

& the soul bleeds . the heart dies .
;melissa

Lock and Load, baby,
you ready to Rock and Roll?
HIT THAT BULLSEYE.

♥

5:05 PM

some people just have the wondrous ability to make me laugh !
and i absolutely LOVE those people , who are my friends ! ❤
today was kind of crappy .
had lit ! ❤
mrs r made us express ourselves through 'still life' .
our group got DREAMS .
and it was darn funny .
cause me and charlotte were the people 'sleeping' .
and while trisha was taking the photo ,
charlotte kept shaking so violently with laughter while i tried to sit still !
and those two 'dreams' behind us were probably darn funny but since we couldnt turn around to see them .. ):
mandy was the one who explained the weird & funny scene .
and our line ?
I LIKE DREAMING ! -_____-"
mostly because i realised how some people can be so uncaring .
really depressing and demoralising !
i mean , other people are going through the same things as you .
schoolwork , pressure , mugging , stress .
everything !
and you're considerably having a lighter load than the rest of us .
still , you can say that you didnt have time to do it .
and much less , that EXCUSE doesnt have any merit anymore !
if other people can start on it , much less COMPLETE it ,
why cant you ?
and i cant believe that you dont even care for others around you .
you're willing to let them suffer because of something that you yourself did ?

after school , had amaths lesson .
but a grand total of 12 people turned up .
TEEVEE T_T
YOU WALAO !
PANGSEH ME AND CHARLOTTE JUST TO GO FOR SOMEONE'S BIRTHDAY PARTY =.=
while i was waiting in class doing EL hw , charlotte was eating lunch .
then when she came back ,
we 'camwhored' in class .
but technically it cant really be camwhoring because there arent many photos .
mostly because we deleted them since our hands were shaking too much and the photos were really blur !
after amaths , left for home .
charlotte's probably still in school .
having music . >:D
AHAHA . I'M SO GLAD I DROPPED IT :X

& even my tear glands are getting accustomed to crying .
;melissa

Lock and Load, baby,
you ready to Rock and Roll?
HIT THAT BULLSEYE.

♥

Tuesday, July 03, 2007

10:08 PM

ah i forgot to say something impt today .
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAVIN . ;D
and no you are not normal . ;x

& hear the raindrops pitter patter down .
;melissa

Lock and Load, baby,
you ready to Rock and Roll?
HIT THAT BULLSEYE.

♥

6:37 PM

ah dey .
watching her like that is irritating .
and i can anticipate how some people will react .
especially her.

i dont understand .
i thought the decision would be so easy .
when you're the third person ,
everything's so easy !
but when you experience it in first person ,
you feel the intensity ,
the heat ,
the pressure .
i still havent really decided .
but i rather go for the one against most people's choice .
why ?
because that's what i've been thinking about .

if you dont understand ,
nevermind .

& once , we understood and liked each other .
;melissa

Lock and Load, baby,
you ready to Rock and Roll?
HIT THAT BULLSEYE.

♥

Monday, July 02, 2007

10:37 PM

OHMYGOSH .
mandy looks so innocent . ;x
far cry from the evil one that lives in ringaneko .
&&amp; XERO . YOU DIE WHEN WE GET THE YRBK NEXT YR .
xero&ringa are chiobus while blue is shuai .
LOL .

after reading those books ,
it's been nagging at me ,
is this what girls would kill for ?
~~i miss 7th so much~~.
where're your comforting words ?
they always brighten up my day so much . ):
it's an outright lie !
please dont write anymore , because i've stopped thinking of you at last .
-Yin Ling.

ahhh !
EMOTIONAL ):
EMOTIONAL ):
EMOTIONAL ):
PMS MUST BE GETTING TO ME !
AHHHHHHHHHH . T_T

&accuracy is the counter's forte .
;melissa

Lock and Load, baby,
you ready to Rock and Roll?
HIT THAT BULLSEYE.

♥

7:38 PM

smothering .
that's what it was .

and the counter goes up to 2.

i didnt want to do it .
but i had no other option .

watched 'the girl who leapt through time' yesterday .
it was simply LOVES .
chiaki chiaki <3
and it might've occurred to you ,
i go crazy over almost every anime/manga guy .
LOL .
i can currently say that i am crazy over :
#1: IZUMI SANO !
#2: NAKATSU !
#3: YUE !
#4: HOTOHORI ;x
#5: CHIA KI ;x (the newest addition xD)

and yesterday was also a bad day .
i lost my pretty star bracelet yes , the one bought in KL .
HEARTBREAKKKKK .
today had crescentian rm .
was darn fun .
and when manman left ,
the GM came in .
LOL .
DARN FUNNY DARN FUNNY !
GMSummerProm IS FUNNY ! :D

talked to ringa and xero and blu3 .
ringa started the CABCY thing , which she associated with gatsby o_o
i can give you gatsby ~
one day , we're all gonna go to CABCY .
and i want to be a volunteer for the re-enactment thing !
COME ON MANMAN !
I'LL PUSH YOU IN THE DUMPSTER !
ROFL !
THAT ONE WAS SERIOUSLY RETARDED xD
or the verbal abuse one o_O
that guy pro seh .
nbknsknn .
wow o_o

*anyone who has the gatsby song , please send to me :D

& the counter rises accordingly .
;melissa

Lock and Load, baby,
you ready to Rock and Roll?
HIT THAT BULLSEYE.

♥

Sunday, July 01, 2007

12:03 AM

took the same quiz that i took last year .

You scored as Dance, You should be a Dance major! Like a lithe ballerina, you dance because you believe there is beauty in expressing the physical form.

Linguistics

100%

Theater

100%

Dance

100%

Art

92%

Engineering

83%

Journalism

83%

Mathematics

75%

Philosophy

67%

English

67%

Anthropology

58%

Psychology

50%

Chemistry

42%

Sociology

42%

Biology

33%

What is your Perfect Major? (PLEASE RATE ME!!)
created with QuizFarm.com

cool isnt it ?
i still want to be an engineer .
though it would be cool to be a linguist , or a dancer , or a threatrician .
the way our opinions change as we grow is definitely interesting . (:

& was i planning on that ?
;melissa

Lock and Load, baby,
you ready to Rock and Roll?
HIT THAT BULLSEYE.

♥